Keryn,

I don’t know what to do. This has been such a crap day. I feel gross. No you don’t understand I would do anything not to be me right now. I told Ike when we started going out that I didn’t want to screw everything up cos that what I do, and look what’s happened, he has risked everything because of our pathetic break up. Keryn, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to ring because I don’t want to talk to any of the guys, are they angry at me? Cos if I was them I would be angry at me. I don’t even know if you will get this email. Well you will, but with all the events probably not until next weekend. Oh Keryn I feel so bad, you must want to spend this time with Taylor instead you are picking up the pieces again, the pieces I broke. I am so sorry, please understand that.

You know I left that office today, that crummy stink office in La today wondering why I hadn’t gotten the job of my dreams. Why had I wondered? It’s so obvious. I don’t deserve it. Don’t worry Keryn, I’m fine about it. What goes around comes around.

Maybe Keryn I should speak to Ike. Maybe I can help. But will he want to speak to me? It is so hard to know that you are the only one that can help but also know that you are the one that caused the sun to fall. Has he been keeping all this inside all this time? The poor guy. Maybe I’ll send him a email after this. Maybe I’ll ring. Maybe I’ll fly over….maybe I’ll do nothing at all. It is all so confusing. Life is such a mess. Tell everyone I love them, even if they hate me.

Kayla
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Ike,

I am so sorry. I know you wont get this for a while but I had to write something. I am so sorry. Call me when you can. Please forgive me.

Kayla

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